12 June 2011

Lazy

You know, sometimes there are instances in which I just don’t want to do anything. I am here in Manila, and the heat is quite stifling. I already finished my visa errand (I finished my visa renewal interview, and already got my passport back yesterday), and I am almost done with my shopping needs (I think, I still have to buy a new wallet and a leather belt, but that’s it I think). I still need to visit my old undergraduate institution since I am have some business with a journal publisher that is based there (I am picking up some hard copies of a publication I recently had), and that’s about it. I have a few friends that I might meet and catch up, but nothing is sure yet. Aside from that, the only thing I still need to do here is backpacking, which I am doing starting next week Thursday.

Granted, there are plenty of other things I need to do, and I can enumerate them in my head. I still have a paper to finish writing (this paper will be transformed into an abstract that I will submit to a conference in January, but the submission deadline is in July). I have my dissertation to write (at this point, I can already write the introduction and literature review chapters: I already have started writing the literature chapter but it is in no way finished, and I hate the introduction chapter since it’s the hardest to write in my opinion). I also have to start making some slides and handouts for a conference presentation I have in August. And I also need to prep for my class which I will be teaching this Fall semester (the good thing with this one is that I already taught that class once, and I actually liked it, so it’s not as hard as prepping for a class that I haven’t taught before). Finally, I need to renew my ethics training, as it is only valid for three years, and it will expire this month. If I don’t do it, then I cannot continue running experiments involving human participants in the lab.

However, yesterday I had no energy or motivation whatsoever to do any work. Perhaps it was the heat, perhaps it was the fact that Internet outages seem to be common here in Manila (there were already three instances lasting at least half the day for the past week), perhaps it was because I just am in vacation mode, but I didn’t feel like opening my computer and doing work. I did open my computer, but instead, I got caught up in watching the two shows I religiously watch, The Amazing Race and Glee (speaking of which, I am glad that Kisha and Jen won the race).

I don’t know, I felt lazy yesterday, and although in the back of my head, I was fast-forwarding to June 2012, as my adviser seemed quite confident that I will be graduating then, I didn’t feel like lifting a finger yesterday. That was bad. Or maybe not. I don’t know. I rarely procrastinate, but when I do, it’s usually during semester breaks like these. I guess I don’t like the fact that there’s no outside pressure that is exerting its force on me. There’s no other students roaming the halls doing their work. It’s all me against myself, it’s all my head, left on its own devices to battle this mind-over-matter affair.

And now, I am blogging. Writing this article. Fine, I figured, I should add at least one page to my paper today, and that will be my goal. I’ll save this article once it’s finished, and after that, I’ll go and work on my paper. I have a pot of coffee I can use, so I’ll be fine. I’m done listening to Bruno Mars for the time being. As much as I enjoyed his song and his monkey-graced music video, I don’t think I should be listening to it at the moment. After all, I need to be productive as much as I can, as next week I’ll be on the road, racking up some road distances and whipping out my camera.


(Archaeological Walls, from my Ollantaytambo Series)

2 comments:

  1. Don't do anything. Being lazy is fine. Maybe it's the heat, maybe it's just the atmosphere, maybe you need a break.

    Who knows.

    Just enjoy :-)

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  2. I definitely need a break, and having one definitely works!

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