However, I also understand that there exists chaos in the world. As much as we want order to reign, that is not always the case, and chaos is the other side of the coin. And to some degree, there are things we cannot control. The weather, the temperature, the way experiments turn out, the people we meet on the street, these are just some of the things that we cannot control, and if we try to control them all, we'll just end up frustrated and unhappy, disappointed and burnt out.
So, the other day, I was told that I operationalize everything. That might be true. In fact, as much as I embrace the unpredictable nature of some aspects of my life, I still try to schedule this bursts of unpredictability. I am heading to the Philippines in a few months, and as I have done last year, I am heading to other parts of the country that I haven't explored yet. I have a sketchy plan, but nothing is set in stone. I'll just buy a one-way ticket to some city in the south, and explore the area, and when I am done, I'll check the departure times for the ferries, and hop on to the next available ferry. I'll do the same routine until I am tired or out of time, in which I'll buy a ticket to return back. I think I like that idea. Scheduled spontaneity.
So what does that do to me? It allows me to relax, it allows me to give myself the placebo illusion of letting go, when in fact, it was a calculated move. It's a way of pushing boundaries, seeing how far I can go with no set constraints, so when I get back to the routine, I feel refreshed and ready to deal with the ups and downs of a rhythmic lifestyle.
So yes, I am looking forward to summer.