Sometimes, there are things I want to do, yet I just don't have the motivation for it. So there's this huge effort to do it, and sometimes I drag and drag myself just in order to do it, and when I finally am there doing it, it does feel good that I have actually started doing it.
Take this project of mine to complete the 66 Lakes Trail. I've finished more than half of the 416-kilometre long trail by now. But whenever it's Sunday, sometimes I play tricks with my brain arguing for and against it, because it's not an activity that I can simply just decide spontaneously. If I want to do it, then I better get my gear ready and take a ride out there so that I can pick up the trail where I left off.
And sometimes, this whole preparation period is the part where I falter the most. I look at the weather forecast. Is it going to rain? Is it too hot? I do all these mental computations that perhaps is doing nothing but trying to convince myself that it's not a good idea to head out today. And yes, sometimes these mental computations do convince me from going out. It has happened a few times this year. But when they fail, and I finally find myself on the trail knocking off some more kilometres out of my trail backlog, then it does feel good.
I suppose being human is slightly complicated. There's so many mental obstacles sometimes that it's sometimes hard to just do things.